Monday, June 14, 2010

whoa 2010, slow down....

june 14th?! damn. this year is going way too fast. the semester went well, i got two As, one B, and totally failed french. oh well. i'll take it again, this time not online, and kick it's ass. i have to, i spent three hundred dollars on the text and materials, i at least owe myself a B.... :)
i'm glad i've taken the summer off of school. well, with the exception of the performance bellydance class. i'm more than halfway through that class- gaining some confidence and having a blast! though i'm definitely still way nervous about the performance part about it all... i'm seriously considering finding a thigh holster for my flask, or stitching a pocket into my bra for a mini bottle of "liquid courage" ;) i've always been one to over analyze everything, and i am certainly my own worst critic. i suppose sometimes that's a good thing.... if my standards are higher than anyone else's, then maybe i won't let anyone down.

i'm pretty stoked that i'll have my son overnight three nights a week now that he's out of school. now we'll actually be able to have breakfast together twice a week, that's a favorite past time of mine. he's such a good kid. he's been amazingly helpful with everything lately. i love the conversations we have, the time we spend together, and i hope we always have a great relationship. i know he's swiftly approaching his teens, and that will definitely throw a monkey wrench into things, but hey- we all have been there..... he said the sweetest thing to me today, when i picked him up from his dad's house he asked me what day his birthday is on this year, 'cos he really hopes it's on one of my days (it's on sunday, it's not, boooooo....) then he said "actually, everyday i spend at your day is like my birthday or a party. they are my favorite days!" i'm soooo glad he feels the same as i do. i love the days i have him and miss him when he's gone. i'm seriously considering taking him to the spencer bell legacy concert in august. i'm not sure yet, there's a lot to consider....

my list of art projects is piling up, and every day i am more convinced that as much as i hate structure and schedules, i need it. i'm tempted to make a schedule for myself, and actually take time for everything that i want to accomplish. while i'm thinking of it, it may make many things easier= getting into better and healthier eating habits, working out, studying, more productive art making..... the more i think of it, the more sense it makes. i may start that now.

seriously, right now. it's happening....